BOOK TWO - YOU ARE NOT YOUR PAST
This is a draft text for the upcoming ONE SELF TEACHINGS compendium that is due for release in 2019. This particular text is taken from BOOK TWO - THE MATTER OF CONSCIOUSNESS which is a heavily updated and expanded version of Story's 2004 book 'The Messiah Seed' - UPCOMING BOOK DETAILS.
The potential of your dream exists in every moment. Your past is something with which you can either empower or dis-empower yourself. Do not be afraid of the idea that in each moment you are just beginning, for in this understanding lies a great freedom. The universe was not created billions of years ago; it is being created right-Now; in each moment the universe is created anew. This is to realize that you are free and are not constrained by what came before you. In each moment there is the potential for everything to change. In each moment that potential is fulfilled and everything changes. In every moment you recreate the universe; do so in new and exciting ways.
It is not the past that determines your present, it is you. The degree to which your Now-moment comes to reflect and adhere to your past is purely a representation of the level of belief you are carrying that your past dictates your present / future. It is a common rut to perpetually recreate the pain of your past by holding a belief in its power and focusing upon it. Until you stop the pain in your past from creating fear for your future, you will be stuck in a loop of reliving it. To break the repetition of this cycle you must take your power back from the pain. Do this by allowing yourself to completely feel it. Allow it to make you stronger by taking back your power from it. If you choose to carry pain from your past, then realize that on some level you must believe that you need it. Know that you do not need this pain. You do not need any pain. You no longer need its limits.
Just because your past was one way does not mean your future will be the same, unless you resign yourself to that belief. Do not get lost in the pain in your history. Take back your power from your past. Realize that your self-doubt is powerfully reflected your reality. Only you have the power to go out and prove your doubt wrong.
You are not your past. However, if you mentally and emotionally live in your past then you will continually recreate it in your present-moment. If you are mentally-stuck dwelling in the past, open yourself back up to it so that you can fully feel, experience and release it. All things cease to perpetuate once fully experienced because they no longer hold any message for you. Empower yourself through consciously evolving an empowered perception of your past.
I choose to experience my Self as who I am in the-Now rather than through the idea of who I am based upon my past.
DEFINITIONS & CLARIFICATIONS
In addition to the traditional, outward meanings of past and future, there is the way in which they each exist within us as a feeling-based idea that we have a relationship with. To become conscious of this story of our past and this belief in what our future will be is to acknowledge what powerful symbols they have become within us. You have the power over how you choose to not only perceive and express these symbols, but the way in which you allow them to shape the choices that you make in your experience of the Now-moment.
To be conscious of this choice is to have an empowered relationship with quality of time. This is to discover that linear-time is not inherently limiting and there is no need to experience yourself as a victim in relation to it (through feelings such as regret and anxiety, or by carrying stressful beliefs in the jeopardy of running out-of-time).
Once you are empowered in your feeling for your past and future then you will be within an empowered relationship with the passing of time. In this state, with your past and future not being used as symbols of your disempowerment, you will find that the idea of your past and future become less and less important / relevant to you. This is because, when you will allow your complete Self to be expressed into the Now-moment, then your past and future are no longer necessary as extensions to your vessel of Self. This is to be step into ever-shallower experiences of linear-time, just as you are stepping into ever-shallower experiences of individuality, and is to moving closer to the experience of your infinite-Self (which is not contained within linear-time).
In coming to understand that how I feel about my past is the feeling with which I create my future (for it is how I feel about my Self), I have realized how powerfully pain from my past still exists within me. The process of re-orientating my Self to exit this painful rut has been one of becoming conscious of my mental-focus such that I maintain a positive-focus on creating in the present, rather than a regretful focus maintained through repetitive thoughts about the past.