Who Created Suffering?


This is a draft text for the upcoming ONE SELF TEACHINGS compendium that is due for release in 2019. This particular text is taken from BOOK TWO - THE MATTER OF CONSCIOUSNESS which is a heavily updated and expanded version of Story's 2004 book 'The Messiah Seed' - UPCOMING BOOK DETAILS.

Our relationship with the perception of suffering significantly shapes our experience of reality. Suffering is the hardest quality of human existence to not label as being ‘a wrongness’ or mistake. Your relationship with it is therefore one that will take time to reorient, such that you can experience it in an empowering way.

Know that in being asked to accept the existence of suffering you are not resigning yourself (or others) to suffer. It is however to realize that to seek to eradicate or destroy suffering only feeds its continued presence through your focus upon it. Freedom from suffering comes from changing your relationship with it through changing how you perceive it. Few people seek to imagine a vantage point from which they do not feel negatively towards suffering and yet, the imagining of this Self is a powerful point of transformation, as it is to imagine the state of existence of the infinite-Self. This is the part of you, of all of us, that does not fear suffering (through its knowing of it), hence its ability to choose the human-experience .

To know that you created your own suffering, combined with the realization that ‘we are one’ (the experience of the infinite-Self), is to know that at our level of unified-consciousness, you are the creator of suffering, because you are the One Self. The transformation of your relationship with suffering comes through the knowing of your-Self as its creator. The final acceptance we grant in our journey to accept All That We Are is the acceptance of the existence of suffering. Through the knowing of suffering (because it is the lynch-pin of the illusion that we have always resisted) is ‘the knowing of Self as God’ (the knowing of yourself as the One Self). This does not mean that you need to continue to suffer to awaken. It means there is a window through which you can step out of the illusion of individuality and it looks like the realization that as the One Self you are that which has been every human that has ever existed and therefore contain the entire human experience, from its greatest joy to its greatest suffering. There is no more you can learn about suffering; the evidence for this is that you are now realizing that you are its creator (which is the last thing that can be learnt about it). You cannot know yourself as the creator of your reality as long as you deny that you are the creator of all the suffering that you have ever experienced within that reality.

I choose to be conscious of the ways in which my relationship with suffering is shaping my life.

We did not become human in order to remember our immortality having made it unconscious in order to experience mortality. The finite lifespan of our mortal-Self always leads us back to the remembering of our immortal-infinite-Self (at the physical death of our mortal-Self). To remember our immortality prior to death is called awakening. Rather than being some idealized goal that humanity has created for itself to achieve, it is better understood as the journey through a back-door in the illusion that forms the human-experience . To awaken is for the mortal-Self to remember that it is immortal (the experience of the infinite-Self). This experience, as the name suggests, has infinite faces, but as a response / reflection to the trauma of suffering, the awakening experience is met through the part of the Self that is most resisted; namely the infinite-collective state of existence / consciousness within you that knows all itself to have experience all human suffering. To reveal the greatest freedom, you must reveal your greatest pain, for only in seeing your wounds clearly will you understand why you created them.

I understand suffering to be a quality of human life that, regardless of how much I resist it, I am always in relationship with. How I feel about its existence is a feeling that I constantly carry with me that feeds into the creation of my personal reality. Though I realize that there is nothing wrong in raging at suffering or feeling depressed about it, I also understand that these emotions can only ever increase the presence of suffering in my life for they are a face of my suffering. How I feel about my suffering is the part of my relationship with it that I can access through choice in the present-moment. By consciously choosing to look at ‘why I have created the suffering in my life?’, instead of viewing it as a mistake, I empower my Self to no longer play the role of victim in relation to the wounds I have yet to resolve. This will be a journey that takes time. I will not repress my feelings of anger, anxiety or depression through an idea they are to be resisted, as only in meeting my pain can I understand why I chose it.