BOOK ONE - SHIELDS ARE WOUNDS
This is a text for the upcoming ONE SELF TEACHINGS compendium that is due for release in 2019. This particular text is taken from BOOK ONE - I AM YOU. YOU ARE GOD which is a minor update to Story's book 'You Are God. Get Over It!' - UPCOMING BOOK DETAILS.
To be in allowance of all experience is to be in the unfolding. Through attachment to our life being a set way, we potentially bring ourselves to experience pain through our resistance to the unfolding. We experience the pain as coming from the event we are resisting, meaning that we label the event as painful, rather than seeing that it is our resistance to it that is creating the pain. This pain can be experienced in many diverse ways such as grief, fear, guilt, physical pain, or loneliness.
Pain in itself adds much color and contrast to life. To wish to never experience pain is to wish not to have been born into this type of physical reality. Pain does not need to be feared. To fear pain is to reject a part of beingness - a part of yourself. Fear of pain will only ever lead you to pain, for it is to doubt your Godhood. Pain is fundamentally no more than a sensation, and is neither inherently positive nor negative, this is a judgment that we apply to it. To see this is to see the difference between pain and suffering.
Pain is of the moment, when the energy of an experience moves through your being. It is our acute fear of pain that creates most of what we perceive as its negative aspects. The fear of what a pain could be is usually worse than the reality. When experienced as a choice, such as getting a tattoo or watching an upsetting movie, and without the preconception that it will be negative, pain can be felt purely as a concentration of stimulation. As such its intensity can even become perceived as being pleasurable. Even a painful emotional experience has its own beauty in the feeling of aliveness that rides on the waves of emotion that flow from it; a good cry can feel wonderful. The purpose of pain is not to hurt us; it is a signal to focus us on resistance in our being. A physical wound hurts simply to alert us that it needs to be tended to; this is to help us, not hurt us.
When we experience pain at a level where we come to fear for an aspect of our being, we seek to shut it down - reject it from our consciousness. We do this by building a wall of resistance between it and our conscious perception of it. The area of pain becomes cocooned in our resistance and we are shielded from it. Instead of the pain being experienced and released, it becomes trapped in our being; carried forward with us as a wound. A wound is an energetic event that was felt to be too painful to be completely experienced when it occurred. Any aspect of it which we could not accept is stored in order to be processed later. Until we feel able to deal with it, we carry it as a wound. The wound then becomes a part of our story because it becomes a boundary in our being - a line we will not cross out of fear of re-experiencing what we were feeling when the wound was created.
A wound can be seen as pain elongated over time through our resistance to experiencing it; this is suffering. Pain is not suffering unless we make it so through our resistance to feeling it. Pain is an acutely intense moment and once that moment is past, if we allow ourselves to feel it, then it is gone. It is not possible to experience pain through memory. You can of course remember that you felt pain, but the actual experience of the pain is not something that can be laid down in memory. If in remembering a painful event you feel the pain directly, it is because that pain is still with you in the form of a wound. You are not remembering it; you are still experiencing it. Though not pleasant, wounds are not a mistake or failure. They are a mechanism we use to process experience at a rate we can cope with. They are a way in which we can choose to express and define our story.
The boundary of a wound (the resistance which surrounds the pain) is experienced as being a shield. In the original painful experience, the desire to shield ourselves from that pain creates a shield. If in the future we start getting close to the pain, then the shield is experienced instead of the pain. This is a self-protective instinct, but it is also an instinct that serves to maintain our wounds. The shield is in fact a statement of belief that what we are being shielded from is dangerous, will hurt us, or will perhaps even destroy us. Though shields are something that we associate with keeping us safe, they are in fact a statement of a belief in danger. You only need protection if you fear there is danger. A shield is a fear. A fear is something that repels us away from experience.
The linear view of being wounded is that an external event occurs that causes a wound. Out of the experience of that hurt we create a shield to protect ourselves and prevent that hurt being experienced again. The event that caused the wound is then seen as the cause of the shield. The creation of the shield is seen as the effect of the painful event. This is a denial of our creatorship, in the form of our denial that we are the cause of the pain. We deny ourselves as being the source and, in not seeing the painful event as a reflection of us, we are forced to conclude that it was an external dangerous force that hurt us. This results in the creation of a belief in danger which is manifested as a shield being created. The shield seeks to partition off the painful area of being. That area of being can then be seen to be a part of our own being that we are suppressing. A wound is the rejection of a part of our own being - a part that we perceive as too painful to deal with.
To make sense of this partitioned off area we then apply a descriptive label to the shield in order to justify it. These labels are our fears and in essence read: “Do not go beyond this point. There is pain here. You do not need what is here. It will hurt you.” This message is more than a warning; it is the energy of fear. To experience one of your shields is to feel fear. To awaken is to change these labels to: “Beyond this point lies a part of yourself that, at the time this shield was created, you did not feel you could handle. When you feel you are ready, come back here and lower this shield to integrate this part of your being and release yourself from the fear it represents.” This is to see without the illusion of cause and effect, through to a singular energetic event where you closed down a part of your being - a contraction of being through the creation of a fear. The belief in the danger and the shield are one - two sides of the same energetic event. The perception of the danger and the raising of the shield are one. They create each other. There is no danger except that which is created by shields. A shield is a belief in danger.
To heal a wound is to face a fear, put down a shield, and allow the experience you originally denied to pass through your being. In releasing a wound you will therefore feel its pain, but instead of holding it to you through resistance, you release it by accepting the message you could not originally accept. Though you will still feel the energy that you originally labeled as painful, it can now be felt as liberation, for to heal a wound is to step out of a cage. Though it may still be painful, it will not be the same as when you originally sealed it up because you have changed, and you will bring your new clarity to it. Some wounds can be so old that when we open them to be healed we do not feel any pain at all. This is not because the energy has gone, but because we are at a point where we do not perceive that energy as painful, even though originally it was painful enough to wound us.
Can you believe that there is nothing in reality that you need to shield yourself from? Can you release your belief in danger? Shields only ever shield you from one thing; the realization that you are safe.