BOOK THREE: AWAKENING: WHO AM I?
This is a draft text for the upcoming ONE SELF TEACHINGS compendium that is due for release in 2019. This particular text is taken from BOOK THREE - A FRAMEWORK FOR EVERYTHING - UPCOMING BOOK DETAILS.
Fear has been the chosen name for the face of the unknown within humanity. As such, it is just a word for a quality and you are free in how you experience your relationship with any quality (for each is but a face of the One quality). Through altering your understanding of fear, you can radically redefine your relationship with it, such that you relate to it positively, as a form of excitement. When you do this, fear ceases to be experienced as pointing at what to avoid and instead becomes a signpost to freedom, highlighting the most powerful relationships available to transform.
With this shift, there is a change in the meaning of ‘Who am I?’ from being a question that is predominantly asked from a point of individuation (“What makes me unique / different?”) to a question that is more inclusive (“What is the nature of all this that I am a part of?”). Even though its fear-based origin may not be immediately apparent because of how we mentally philosophize around it, ‘Who am I?’ originated from an anxiety around not knowing that resulted in fear being focused on the Self.
The release of this question is to have answered it (despite that answer not being the concrete one sought by your possessive Self). Excitement is an instinctive state that joyfully reaches forward, without fear, to receive more experience. Someone purely in this state does not experience any questioning of Self. That kind of questioning arises out of the stifled outward momentum (immobility) caused by fear, being transposed to an inner, anxious momentum in the mind. Someone in a state of excitement does not have the question ‘Who am I?’ because they are already in the space that the fear-based question is asking to find.
This shift of the Self is often referred to as ‘releasing the ego’ as it is to let go of the possessive Self who says, “I am something particular. I am THIS, not that.” and becomes the Self who says,
“I am that which can be any definition. As such I am no definition in particular. Who I am in the moment is the totality of my expression. It is not that I have no history. It is that I hold it all in my Now Moment choice of definition.”
The outward time that we see as so immutable is a quality of experience that arose out of fear. The future and past as we now experience them did not exist until consciousness used unconsciousness to become fearful of itself in the present, such that it felt the need to create the ‘not-present’ to escape to.
DEFINITIONS & CLARIFICATIONS
Through the evolution of the human mind we can ask the question ‘Who am I?’ from a state of excitement and anticipation as to what the answer will be. This makes sense from our standpoint of redefined-fear; however, to understand the wider nature of any quality you must include the knowing of how it came into being (as all existence births from the unfolding of instinctual-intention). It can be hard for us to imagine how redundant thinking about the past and future will become as we release the polarization of fear from our perception. To release fear is to release regret for the past and anxiety for the future and that is to release the majority of the emotion (and therefore focus) in those relationships.
‘Who will I be?’ contains an idea of the future that originated from a fear-based dissatisfaction with the present. The very quality of looking outside of the present (to either the future or the past) did not exist until there was resistance to it, created through fear. When the unfolding present fulfills all your needs there is no reason to focus on upcoming potentials. To do so is to stop looking where you are in the present, and that is the choice to further divide the perception of Self across time.
This kind of temporal-dispersal is created by the mind in its defining of the idea of our past and the idea of our future as powerful symbols through which we navigate our path. Past and future are not just conceptions of ‘when’; they form a cornerstone of our feeling of freedom versus inevitability. We are used to thinking of ourselves as existing within time, but time is a quality (a variable) that we each ‘possess’ and can change. To understand it this way is to experience a greater mobility of consciousness.